good riddance, 2017
Dec. 30th, 2017 04:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
peiyenlast update of the year, I think!
PERSONAL
it's been a weird couple of weeks. lots of ups and downs, mainly downs. feels like my brain's gone to mush. i don't know if you've ever spent an entire saturday lying in bed crying and sleeping and crying again, but that shit is extraordinarily exhausting. took a couple of days for me to stop feeling shitty, and by the time that happened i was just reaaally relieved about being capable of Not feeling sad.
Mr. W has been acting as a waste disposer for my emotional turmoil thus far, which is............. weird, and very nice of him, and OK I Guess This is now A Thing. It's now come down to this -- the fact that I no longer have close friends/family to talk to about my feelings and the only person left is my beloved former work supervisor. Mainly I just rant about how bullshit my life is while he points out that i'm overreacting and interprets everything in a positive light like the fucking saint he is. He's still on sick leave for his knee injury but shooould be back to work in a few weeks so I'll probably ease off the weird texting. I do hope the timing works out so I get to visit him in clinic the next time I fly home :)) i owe him like a gazillion coffees.
in a desperate move to feel excited about life again, i bought TICKETS TO SEE FALL OUT BOY IN SINGAPORE, HOLY SHIT. shortly afterwards i started panicking about not having anyone to go with, which was unneeded i guess. It'll be a reunion trip with two of my best friends from secondary school. We used to be the idiots who hung out on instant messaging 24/7 despite already seeing each other at recess every day. Good times. It'll be nice to see them again, along with seeing one of my favourite bands perform live. Score!
TELLY
said goodbye to the final episodes of Modern Life Is Goodish, which I'm going to miss immensely. it's just as well though, after reading about how much time Dave Gorman spends on every episode + the fact that he seems to be running out of material throughout the current run (it's just as funny though! just not as well tied together as the previous series). I'm stupidly optimistic that maybe I'll get to see him on tour next year. Maybe.
last episode of The Russell Howard Hour was perfect. That interview with John Oliver is honestly the most adorable shit I've ever seen; I didn't know the two of them were friends and I fucking LOVE comedian friendships
Another great thing was the "Christmas" episode of Travel Man with Jon Hamm(!) An absolute goddamn delight it was. They really know how to pick their guests for this show (see also: Paul Rudd, Rebel Wilson). Ayoade was flawless as usual -- the Hong Kong snack food tour and the taichi scenes had me rolling with laughter, oh man
BOOKS
I did the thing!
Hoorah!!! I honestly thought I wasn't going to make it this year tbh (you can obviously see a couple of books are there just to make up the numbers but it STILL COUNTS)
How Not To Be A Boy gave me so many feelings omg. I was halfway through THAT chapter during one of my dark days and ahahhahahhaa that was a bad decision on my part; but goSH the stuff on suicidal urges and getting therapy really got to me. and every mention of David p. much made my heart bleed, it's ridiculous how emotional I got over this book
I think that's about it!! I'm oncall on new year's eve, which means I'll be ringing in the New Year doing what I've been doing for the past 12 months -- that is, working like a fuckin dog. yay. Then I'm flying home in mid-January, got my next therapist appointment lined up and hopefully a coffee date with Mr W as mentioned :p
Here's to a better 2018.
PERSONAL
it's been a weird couple of weeks. lots of ups and downs, mainly downs. feels like my brain's gone to mush. i don't know if you've ever spent an entire saturday lying in bed crying and sleeping and crying again, but that shit is extraordinarily exhausting. took a couple of days for me to stop feeling shitty, and by the time that happened i was just reaaally relieved about being capable of Not feeling sad.
Mr. W has been acting as a waste disposer for my emotional turmoil thus far, which is............. weird, and very nice of him, and OK I Guess This is now A Thing. It's now come down to this -- the fact that I no longer have close friends/family to talk to about my feelings and the only person left is my beloved former work supervisor. Mainly I just rant about how bullshit my life is while he points out that i'm overreacting and interprets everything in a positive light like the fucking saint he is. He's still on sick leave for his knee injury but shooould be back to work in a few weeks so I'll probably ease off the weird texting. I do hope the timing works out so I get to visit him in clinic the next time I fly home :)) i owe him like a gazillion coffees.
in a desperate move to feel excited about life again, i bought TICKETS TO SEE FALL OUT BOY IN SINGAPORE, HOLY SHIT. shortly afterwards i started panicking about not having anyone to go with, which was unneeded i guess. It'll be a reunion trip with two of my best friends from secondary school. We used to be the idiots who hung out on instant messaging 24/7 despite already seeing each other at recess every day. Good times. It'll be nice to see them again, along with seeing one of my favourite bands perform live. Score!
TELLY
said goodbye to the final episodes of Modern Life Is Goodish, which I'm going to miss immensely. it's just as well though, after reading about how much time Dave Gorman spends on every episode + the fact that he seems to be running out of material throughout the current run (it's just as funny though! just not as well tied together as the previous series). I'm stupidly optimistic that maybe I'll get to see him on tour next year. Maybe.
last episode of The Russell Howard Hour was perfect. That interview with John Oliver is honestly the most adorable shit I've ever seen; I didn't know the two of them were friends and I fucking LOVE comedian friendships
Another great thing was the "Christmas" episode of Travel Man with Jon Hamm(!) An absolute goddamn delight it was. They really know how to pick their guests for this show (see also: Paul Rudd, Rebel Wilson). Ayoade was flawless as usual -- the Hong Kong snack food tour and the taichi scenes had me rolling with laughter, oh man
BOOKS
I did the thing!
Hoorah!!! I honestly thought I wasn't going to make it this year tbh (you can obviously see a couple of books are there just to make up the numbers but it STILL COUNTS)
How Not To Be A Boy gave me so many feelings omg. I was halfway through THAT chapter during one of my dark days and ahahhahahhaa that was a bad decision on my part; but goSH the stuff on suicidal urges and getting therapy really got to me. and every mention of David p. much made my heart bleed, it's ridiculous how emotional I got over this book
I think that's about it!! I'm oncall on new year's eve, which means I'll be ringing in the New Year doing what I've been doing for the past 12 months -- that is, working like a fuckin dog. yay. Then I'm flying home in mid-January, got my next therapist appointment lined up and hopefully a coffee date with Mr W as mentioned :p
Here's to a better 2018.
