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bad things shouldn't happen to good people, and other stories
I've been listening to Linkin Park on repeat for a couple of days. I didn't particularly identify myself as a fan when I was a teen, so I was surprised by the fact that I could still sing along to so many of their songs, and that the lyrics still struck a cord inside me. In another life, I would have been as obsessed with them as I was with Simple Plan / Good Charlotte / Green Day / etc.
Not that I wasn't saddened by Chester's death when I heard about it. It hurts to find out that someone like that was harbouring so much pain and suffering that they couldn't see any other way out. Depression and mental illnesses suck, and it fucks up your life.
I've been through periods of darkness, of so much self-loathing and hate and thinking that the world would be better off without me, of uncontrollable crying and so many waves of pain and sadness that every single hour of every single day just felt like drowning. Of self-isolation and intentional self-harm and just wanting everything to end. It's bullshit, and I wouldn't wish the feeling onto anyone else, ever.
(I'm doing better these days, I swear)
One of my first reactions to the news was I hope Mike is alright, and fuck, I really hope he's okay. My heart goes out to all of Chester's family and friends. It's a terrible, tragic loss. Listening to LP's lyrics feels so ominous now. Their music reached out to so many of my generation and has helped countless people to deal with whatever hardships they were going through, and I'm just.. sad now. ok.
I got a bit excited when I saw updates about Psych: The Movie today, but was surprised to find out that TIM HAD A STROKE?? what? Cue me scrolling through his twitter timeline and no, that is not a "minor" or "a touch of" stroke omg, it's a full-on major, requiring a craniectomy a.k.a. brain surgery kind of stroke. DUDE. Still, it's good to see that he's recovering so well -- god knows I've seen enough cases of CVAs with poor prognoses and questionable quality of life. Tim just comes across as such a lovely, positive, fan-friendly actor. Bless him.
why can't I stop bad things from happening to all the people I love.
Not that I wasn't saddened by Chester's death when I heard about it. It hurts to find out that someone like that was harbouring so much pain and suffering that they couldn't see any other way out. Depression and mental illnesses suck, and it fucks up your life.
I've been through periods of darkness, of so much self-loathing and hate and thinking that the world would be better off without me, of uncontrollable crying and so many waves of pain and sadness that every single hour of every single day just felt like drowning. Of self-isolation and intentional self-harm and just wanting everything to end. It's bullshit, and I wouldn't wish the feeling onto anyone else, ever.
(I'm doing better these days, I swear)
One of my first reactions to the news was I hope Mike is alright, and fuck, I really hope he's okay. My heart goes out to all of Chester's family and friends. It's a terrible, tragic loss. Listening to LP's lyrics feels so ominous now. Their music reached out to so many of my generation and has helped countless people to deal with whatever hardships they were going through, and I'm just.. sad now. ok.
I got a bit excited when I saw updates about Psych: The Movie today, but was surprised to find out that TIM HAD A STROKE?? what? Cue me scrolling through his twitter timeline and no, that is not a "minor" or "a touch of" stroke omg, it's a full-on major, requiring a craniectomy a.k.a. brain surgery kind of stroke. DUDE. Still, it's good to see that he's recovering so well -- god knows I've seen enough cases of CVAs with poor prognoses and questionable quality of life. Tim just comes across as such a lovely, positive, fan-friendly actor. Bless him.
why can't I stop bad things from happening to all the people I love.